pain is better than guilt

*insert ><>
yet sleeping and i'll wake up at 5am... taking a shower at 5am is h-a-r-d even if i set my heater
to the fullest.. but *insert sad face* i want to see azrael and amend for my sins, yeah it was just ash wednesday yesterday and repentance is the theme of the week. anyway, sometimes u just stop thinking and i get weird and sometimes when ure adjusting, it scares u and makes u do and think about things.. actually im too ashamed to write because im not proud of the things i do and im working on it now.