cry me an ocean

im so dead and angry, lonely, depressed and everything dark.
this is the last thing i want to happen. Yet it does happen and the timing, is sooo good,
thesis. why are men so peanut brained. why cant they keep a promise. do they
even know its meaning. why do they change when they felt you love them the same way.
why should i keep talking when men dont understand. the things they do to get you before are
not the things u should expect ahead. there are tons of excuses. they dive into them. pick one
excuse and expect you to believe. im not dumb, im not stupid. my eyes are not big for nothing.

i cant leave another demon right now, its unfair for my thesismates to witness
the gruesome suffering and sadness i will undergo once again. this is the
lowest i can get. i feel the earth will eat me anytime soon. i want to forget.

if youre doing it, why cant i. i keep my promises even the smallest of the small.
i want to disappear. and i will.

*lace*

you know who u are, dont even think to talk to me about it. this is my space.
i never knew the thin line between love and hate, until now.