It's still ME, blogging since geocities

I've abandoned this blog because it's just not how it used to be. Blogging has evolved into something more than a personal log or diary into Online Marketing achuchuchu. Now personal blogs seem to look like a joke, why oh why did blogging became so serious here in Manila. Not that I am complaining but I wish there are less chuchu's judging people like they're on American Idol. Not everyone is expecting their blogs to be the next bestsellers. Some people, like me, just want to write.




Anyway, lots have changed including my life with the arrival of my first descendant. From the suzaku, came ash. Now he is 3 months old and I think I've matured faster than anyone could ever imagine. But underneath, it's still me - cos I thought I'd lost myself along the way.

Rawr.

Lace Llanora
blogging since geocities and notepad.

Photo of the Night - View from the Bedroom

This is our view from the bedroom, it's good that I took the time to photograph the moon and the skies so I can go back and remember how lucky we are and how beautiful life is despite of.

No one can take this away from me and I will always have this view :) The structure is a Church of the next village and the trees are our own.

I realize now why sometimes we are given hard and trying times, that is to appreciate the good in life.

I had a wonderful evening after work with my family. My partner picked me up from the train station and my pulsating headache (which I had the entire day) suddenly melted away.

My mom prepared me watermelon shake and we all looked at my niece's newest photos, her 100th day at Prep school.

Now I have everything I need to face a new day tomorrow.

Attack of the Show and some thoughts

This week was pretty fast, I can't believe it's already Friday and the days went swooshing by! I always look forward to watching Attack of the Show at the new MAXX channel on cable. They serve everything we need to know about Internet, online gaming, and best of all, gadgets. Yep they make me happy before I snooze. Check out their website http://www.g4tv.com/

I'm also excited for Friday night and the weekend so I can freshen up my brain and sleep more. I'm thinking pizza, KFC, coke, cake, and tea.

Yet I'm sad because a friend is going back to school and will leave me alone :( I'll surely miss her and the tandem that we have. Why is everybody moving away? Hope I can do it on my own.

We're all growing busy and all we need is support and inspiration.

Cheers!

5 Quick Ways to Stop Crying (or Pretend You're Not)

My sister Joni and niece Anya just drove to the airport and I spent the entire day holding back tears. I wished that my tear ducts were paralyzed and stuffing my eyelids with tissue didn't drain my tears either. This post may be helpful someday, so read some of the ways to halt those tear ducts.

1. Visualize - visualize that what's happening isn't really happening. Example, I convinced myself that they are not going to Australia but the mall.

2. Wash the dishes - and be very O.C. about food stains, scrub them hard, think how you can make the plates whiter. I washed the dishes 15 minutes before they left, then washed them really slow. This gets your head out of the situation and gives you an excuse why you are silent. It's hard to talk when holding back tears, there's like a clog on your throat.

3. Lock yourself inside the bathroom - breathe in and breathe out, here's your chance to do number 1 again (visualize). This is also the step where you can stuff your eyelids with tissue paper. Make sure every drop of tear is absorbed.

4. Pretend you're doing something in the bathroom - after bathroom 1, go to bathroom 2. This is the last resort when you really can't hold them back anymore. As they were leaving, I pretended that I was busy on the toilet. Flush the toilet and pour some water to make it sound realistic.

Then when the car drove away, I stuffed my eyes again with tissue.

5. To further distract yourself, watch a movie on cable TV.

It didn't helped though that when I finally rolled down my tears in my bedroom, my mean boyfriend appeared from behind the curtains, shooting the camera at me. He was laughing and announced that I was crying. I didn't find it funny for the record.

Here's hoping I'll be seeing them this May in Melbourne.

When Unexpected Accident Hits

This morning, I was extra early in going to work. Azrael and I were riding a shuttle going to Manila when we heard a collision sound from afar. Then suddenly, we hit something. Right away, the thing we hit caused a gigantic cave inside our vehicle. I swear the ceiling almost reached my forehead, the windshield was shattered, and the vehicle looked like it was stepped on by a dinosaur. Everyone was silent, no one really screamed for dear life but all of us passengers were okay.

People from nearby were running towards our car, I didn't dare look in front of the vehicle as I might see a dead body or something. It was weird that I hailed a jeepney as soon as I collected myself because I was more worried to be late for work - adrenaline rush maybe.

Inside the jeepney, we passed by more people and some dead bodies. This is really creepy and I hate seeing accidents, I didn't know if these were the people that we hit. On my way to work i felt like I was floating and wow, I'm not dead and I can still go to work. I discovered that the thing that hit us was the wheel of a 10 wheeler truck and just discovered now that we did hit someone. See this news from GMA.

Okay, now I'm really feeling weird. Good thing I didn't know this while working >.< and hey, I am alive, thank God.

How to make your dreams come true

Good times - its moments like these that make me think time is the most precious thing in life. Kids won't stay kids and everyone won't be on earth forever.

This is a picture of me and my niece Anya, they are flying away again after 2 weeks but at least I got my share of good times - playing bubbles in our yard, senseless shopping with my sister, and feeling just like 2 years ago. Anya was staying with us until they left for Australia 2 years ago. Anya is addicted to cars, can ask 10 questions in 1 minute, and has unlimited energy resource.

2008 looks promising for an Aquarian like me, that is, according to the stars. I've been busy with work but very happy and looking forward for things to come. A percentage of my brain and heart though is preoccupied with the thought of not having to see my sister and niece for another year or two. Changes are scary but if people want to reach some goals, you have to make make space and time for new things to come.

They say if you think positively you will achieve anything as long as you really want it. My wild dreams are:


1. to be able to afford to pay for another driver so he can drive me to work everyday. Right now I'm sharing rides with my sister Liza and I have to step down in Taft avenue to take the MRT. I want more time too so if I can finally afford to hire another driver, I can get home faster. haha that's just a wild dream and i'll work hard to achieve this.

2. Then I like world peace, i wish everybody gets a job and love it too, and I wish to make my family happy.

3. I wish Anya can stay here in the Philippines with me forever.

I read somewhere that things, when written down, are easier to come true :)

So list down your 2007 good times and your dreams for 2008. If you can dream/write it, you can achieve it!

The Seeker read the Book!

Mariel and I watched a funny movie yesterday, The Seeker. I tried hard to keep watching and stopped myself from going to sleep. Our favorite line is "I am a seventh son of a seventh son, I am the Seeker, I read the book!" - i almost fell off my seat! Will, the main character is a gorgeous kid though and I believe kids will love this movie which has a simple story line, light versus dark.



The Manila Comics Seminar was also ongoing yesterday, instead of helping my boyfriend, i spent the whole day with Mariel. From the cinema, we found ourselves in a karaoke room singing hopelessly romantic songs. Somewhere down the Road by Barry Manilow is my favorite song to sing! it's so corny though :)


Then to my surprise, the videoke machine showed Kim Ah Joong's music video where she was a mermaid. She's jaw dropping gorgeous, luckily i found the same video on YouTube.





My date with Mariel lasted until 10.30pm, i had a great time hanging out with her. I look forward to seeing more of my friends soon.

Somewhere down the road

are abominable taxi drivers who pretend they don't know where the highway is. Today i met not one but two terrible drivers. The second one kept saying "tsk... tsk... tsk..." as he was driving into my village. I almost ate the first driver who said he was new and pretended not to know where the roads lead to. These drivers just wasted 2 hours of my priceless time and it's a Friday!

i can't help but think life served me an emotional salad today. happy now, miserable after a minute, relaxed, and seconds later, devastated. some individuals showed indifference today too. so i just think of the things that lead me to my happy place and they are:

- writing and getting better at it.
- saving and collecting money.
- exploring my new laptop.
- rediscovering japanese rock music, Hyde and filling the iPod with his songs.
- imagining i have my own planet called Alone, revolving around it is a moon called Silence.
- the arrival of new magazines for November and the quest for Writer's Digest.
- i think i want to write for the rest of my life.

now i feel a lot better. :)